Wonder why everybody can reply me except her, my first love. Why every time I sms with her she will never reply. Last time I ask her she said she does not want to talk to me if she think it means nothing. So why when I sms to her bout her family condition she didn't reply? Is it means nothing to her or she think I can join in? Beside that she always ask me to call her. Yet when I call her, she will ask one question, " What do you want to know?" How should I know? I do not like to make a phone call even to my family and I decided to call her yet she say this kind of thing. What she want? The next thing I do is no contact with her and she get angry. I sms she dun want to reply, call her make me very stress have to think what should I say what shouldn't I say. Conclusion have nothing to say. Then she said there is a problem, long time didn't call her nor sms with her. Dame! I dame angry yet, I can't scold her or voice out because I do not want to.

But one thing I know, she want is that she want me to voice out the problem. But as for me the problem is just the conversation itself. I so lame. I dame lame.

I love a person not to find bad from her but to love her the whole and her nature. It good to talk about I dislike and like about her and she dislike and like about me. But not waiting for each other to talk about it. Why you want to wait if we love each other in the first place? Everyone is trying their best they can do.

Feel so confused I as human using the brain of human and the feeling of human. What am I?