Today is the last day for my holiday. Time to start study. Hate it but have to do it and love it.. I don't think I can love it. The time I go crazy, that's the time I will love it. Time passes so fast. Few more years nobody will know what will happen. I wonder, and I wonder.. If the sight I see is real or is just a fake one? Lets find out and the effect may be.. Think positive doesn't mean things will go positive. But has to, to make ourselves happy~ Lame..

Yesterday, I heard from my sister that she will going to be teaching chinese, PJK, and Sociology stuff. Very funny that my sister is going to teach all that. Especially PJK. She hardly join anything during her school days. Beside that, I quarrel with my mom for a while. I still can't accept what I going to be and I can't accept what I need to study. It's my future yet I see no hope from it in my life. I have work, money and wanted all over the world yet, I see hopeless of it. I see lots of good things will going to happen anything you name it everything.. yet, I feel hopeless with it.. Hope my mom won't repeat any of this things to me again. I think I will throw away the phone immediately. I just can't control my anger when talk about all this stuff. What's wrong here?... My cousin, AS is staying in my house together with her sister, HL. My house will never less then 6 people. ^^ My sister out for study, me also, yet the number of the people in the house will remain the same :)

Besides, I also find out that Eugene that he is the president of his group and also landscaping. Means he going to be very busy for the semester. Can he have the chance to help me out? Who knows. ^^ hope the best time is running out. 29.10.09 - 31.10.09 is my hospital examination and my OSCE is 03.11.09 - 04.11.09 I do not feel very good with it.

Time is running lo, can't write more. Want to study a bit, shit! Let it be what is going be or...

Love mom, dad and family including Bb..