Today work, want to know how I feel. One can list out all the negative words. That's how I feel. I'm so dame angry, I just can't believe I'm doing this. Today, I see nothing in my life as nursing. The more I in nursing the more I view life as meaningless. I see nothing left. Even I quit now, I can't change anything. Because, thought rushing in. So call, I miss my boat to be alive. Someday, for real for what I scare of, will just be real. SHIT! Why all this thought just coming in? Why? Why can't I just be a normal like others? WHY WHY WHY!!!

SHIT!!!!

WHAT HAS THE JOB MAKE ME TO BECOME?!