Where I stay now, the atmosphere were covered by haze.. For few day which is after the heavy rain for few days. Until now, there was none. What a hot and dirty air around here for this few days. Now I not feeling very well, do not know why.. Maybe is that I found out something about me today. Making myself down, very down.. Can I not care bout it? Think now because it affect a lots of people around me. What should I do? What shouldn't I do... Tough question. I just make people around me worry about me only..

Beside test is coming soon. About three more months the hospital exam. Bb told me if I pass the exam she will feel relax. I need to work very hard for the test if not, she can't has a good rest. I will do my best until the end of the day. Beside test, there are others things I need to worry. Think this is life. Never ever can stop worrying on something and life still go on. I wonder, how people spend their time? Seeing them living in a happy life.

Talking bout happy, I remember the time I play badminton in my house. My brothers and sister should recall it including my mom. I played it the whole day with them. From morning until evening. Fantastic! Thats the time our skill on badminton increases a lot, my brother, sister and myself. All type of skills and how to create a better challenge in a small and packed place to play badminton. I can't remember how we did it. It was the best and wonders' time ever with my brothers and sister. And the game starts with pairs until, me alone with my brothers and sister against me. Think of it, I wonder how I manage it. I can remember that they didn't cooperative enough but, in the end they did. I have a hard time playing but, I think it's the happiest time I could remember for now.

Now the most interesting is that, how I view life is about to change when I realize that Bb is beside. Do not know why.. Last time I don't really feel it that way. Maybe Bb love to me and I to Bb is really great. But tell the truth, I need to do lots of basic needs in the house.. ^^