Too weak.. need to push lots more to become much stronger. Too many weak points.. Need to brush up.. lack of something important. Partner.. Need to find someone who is good enough.. to train with me.. or.. should I find any in this world?.. Felt so strange.. emotion.. So mix.. lost.. HATE IT! IS THIS A LIFE? So strange.. can't overcome it.. So weak.. So useless.. Need to become stronger than now. MUCH STONGER! First, die before I can move on. Monday.. Can I? Can do it or I just another LOOSER?!