Close and open my eyes, all pass and present has been moving so fast like nothing. But dark will always runs in my head. Why? I do not have a clue. But today I learn that, why we can't question God. Not because of anything and it just because that, He love us. Question create hates towards a person. Do anyone agree?

This morning, I was in a very bad mood. My mind is all over the place. Thinking nonsense like, can't tell will hurt someone. Then I started to wonder why? Why all negative thought keep on coming in? It just like someone beside you keep on repeating the negative thought to you. It's like someone talking to you none stop about someone bad habit, act.. anything which is bad about a person. Feel very affected and annoyed. Guess what, suddenly the name of "Jesus" appeared. I has been talking to him for few years ago, I think. Then secondly, I told myself, Jesus does not speak bad about people. He does not want people to hate others. So, "Devil" come to my mind. Then I start to ask, why do Evil want to create a solider to fight against God? Should I say Satan? He is the one who control the evil ones. I asked few times the question and suddenly an answer. God, the father love us so much that He do not want to let us join His fight with the devil. He always told us to love others like we love ourselves. When people slap you on the right let them slap on another side too. So in another words, there are no reason for me to know why God and Evil are enemy because, FATHER wishes us to love anyone good and evil. Seeking for the Evil against God will lead the Devil to seek into our spirit and lead us away from GOD, our FATHER and the only FATHER we ever have. Why I said so? It is because, I experience it myself.

So tire working and today feel like going to be sick anytime. If can I do not want to go to work tomorrow morning. Whole body like break down. Today always mess up which patient is which. Almost sent, do things for the wrong patient. Really very dangerous, when think of it@@ Today, I also manage to do one discharge. Not very fast but still can finish it almost by my own. Today sister want to do round with me. Lucky she didn't. I do not know anything bout my patients and the only things I care is carry out all the things been asked and is the best for the patient. I don't care their history or doctor has done. I care is the things happening now. What should I do for them to make them feels better. What is next for them? It's not a good attitude but, thats me.

^^ someone ask me out for dinner. For the first time ever. So next time..