Last week, my parents come to my place where I work and stay. The day they come, I went to my girl friend house. That day also, I got scold by Uncle Ben for not inform him that I do not want to rent the house and he added. "If you have cancel early the house can be rent to a customer for 10 days rent. Because of you we didn't rent it. We trusted you." Said it with a disgust look and full of anger in his face. Make me want to laugh. Why there are such a guy who didn't respect himself and others by scolding people in the public? This is the place where I stay. No human natural just evil.. Thinking what is best for themselves and do what they want to for themselves. Will you scold a customer like that in public? What a guy.. What a guy..

When my parents come for the trip, rain for the rest of the day. Bad luck, can't go for a swim in the sea. The only place can go is the shopping complex. Walks for hours until my leg.. But, we have our great meals with my parents.

Last Sunday, there was a sight for me at my girl friend house. Don't really want to remember it. Then come to the day of our day? Em.. Suddenly remember someone which had gone back to KL...

Speak out her, she is very nice girl. Bad parts, of cos she has, including myself. No one is perfect. Just have to understand each other and things will get slightly better. But the truth, all human just want to do what he or she thinks best for her and another person in their own view. Just like me, I hope I can change it. But I too stubborn to do so. What can I do? I just do not know.. Try is easy to say but act, is dame hard. After the first love, I scare to love another yet, I love.. Happy to know her yet sad for I still can't overcome last love. I show emotionless to everyone yet the true feeling is just hide inside where I myself can't even reach it. Now, I believes in her, Bb. I trusted her for she really loves me and I really love her. Yet, I feel crushed when I remember the first..

The most regret things I have do is I choose nursing but, I am very happy to know most of my friend here. What will happen when I still continue this part? I just have a very bad feeling bout it and feel very sad. It's like my life is shortened few years for me. But, only God knows the truth. I just follow blinded for what I think He asked from me. Which is call believe but still, I wonder, WHO AM I? WHY SHOULD I? WHAT AM I? Am I follow GODS' words or I am following EVIL path? Life is confusing.. Good and evil has been mixed all up.

Evil are using Gods' word for "his" needs.

Can one decide it when one face this kind of problem? I heard that even Bishop can mistaken it. Do you? Can you?