I'm i over look things or thats who I am? Or everyone can see and feel it too?

I see disgust, in their eyes towards me. Everytime I see, I feel so hard to control my emotion of the darkness. It's like covering me from inside out of me.. It's like fighting against myself. Hate to see the eyes of theirs. Feel like want to crush it with my bare hands but, I gain nothing for it. People, full of emotion. The one can trust become the one cant trust. The unknown one, become the saviour. What life mean to a person to live?