Man.. everytime after the work, I feel like I want to kill myself just to get out of it. Feel like one day I will be doing it. Just don't know when it will happen only. Or I went to China and make myself out of sight. Not a bad idea. Maybe can make it the final change before I really go crazy and make the hell of the world. Grab the change.. yeah~
Lately, I think my soul had been crying a lot. Tears fall out without sadness or sorrow. Out of sudden, it just flow out of me and I don't know why is it so.It's not everyday I can see. In this situation, medical lines sure have something in their mind to say. To me, they just want to help to earn money out of me. That is what I had seen in my own eyes. Nothings comes with free not even water we drink for everyday. For the excuse, they say they prosess it. Why they do it? To save the enviroment. Then one can put all the why and who thing in and answer by your own which all make sences. Yet, to me all the problem starts from Human themselves. How polution comes from? And we use our money to pay for it. We want to live easy, like drink, buy from a shop. Sometimes I think of it, it doesn't make sence. How the source of the source comes together? It's complicated. But now, this is how life surpose to be.
So for me life is just a mystery which we can't really define the right's and the wrongs.